Mimpi ini simpankan sahaja.
Thing that hurt you, looks like the thing that help you.
Please hurt me so it can help me alot maybe ?
Love is not enough
Kerdipan malam hilang dek tebalnya kapas malam. Indahnya terhalang tetapi masih bersinar.
It's not about love is not enough, but it's about I've had enough of no love.
Tough love ?
Start Counting
Sendu angin malam ini merangkul erat tubuh, sepi ditelan gelap malam.
One, two, three...
I've start counting and collecting all the pieces he left for me.
You got any leftovers for me?
The girl who choose hurt rather than happy.
Never trust the words.
Never believe in promises.
Because...
Words are made to lie.
Promises are made to be broken.
This time for real.
This time it will be real.
This time I will set you free.
And...
Within a few seconds, I will
Forget you.
Forget us.
Or...
Should I say,
Now you are nothing.
Nothing more.
Nothing less.
# Maybe I should be alone for a while
The Forgotten.
She was the same girl.
Waiting for the same guy.
Perasaan bukan suatu benda yang punya timbang-tara nya.
Sebenarnya, perasan bukanlah suatu benda.
While the whole world against her.
He taught her to be brave.
While the rain chased her.
He taught her to feel the rain.
While the fire burn her.
He taught her not to be afraid.
Instead of helping,
He taught her.
But one thing he could not taught her.
To fall in love and keep waiting.
Alone and Incomplete.
This is the way I choose.
To be alone, to be incomplete.
Anyway, I'd be lying if I told you,
Losing you was something I could handle.
But I'm so over being blue crying over you.
Maybe we're better off this way.
It's better that we take our own way.
I'm sorry to promise you the whole world,
While I know I couldn't even touch the skies.
Melancholy Sound
I'm happy now much happy maybe.
People, let me change.
Low your voice stop making story. Story about me.
I warn you with the lowest and mellow sound.
So please give me time. I'll make it right later.
**When all I want is for you to see. The side that I don’t show to anyone. In fear that they may turn and run. Alone and incomplete - Dash Berlin
The Sun Shining and The Winter Wind
I miss the moment where I can't barely stand still.
I miss the winter season.
Cold breezy but yet warm.
Now, close your eyes.
Feel the wind.
Feel the light.
I am dead.
No, strictly speaking that is not the truth.
I am neither fully alive nor fully dead.
I am 'undead'.
Thus I am,
static, earthbound, my feet anchored in mud, while my essence, my chi, is being pulled, tugged, drawn towards the ghost of my past.
I am troubled and I am trouble.
I am neither fully alive nor fully dead.
I am 'undead'.
Thus I am,
static, earthbound, my feet anchored in mud, while my essence, my chi, is being pulled, tugged, drawn towards the ghost of my past.
I am troubled and I am trouble.
No One Barely Knows Me, Not Even You.
After all these days, I've been living in a warm place but yet safe. Tonight, tears are my soulmate. I'm all alone.
Where have you been?
I'm all gone. Take a good care of yourself.
I miss you. I really need you.
But why you ain't see it?
It hurts me too much.
Where have you been?
I'm all gone. Take a good care of yourself.
I miss you. I really need you.
But why you ain't see it?
It hurts me too much.
Pagi yang Hampir Kosong dan Menyedihkan.
......
I hang up my phone.
Pretending I'm okay, I'm fine.
Entahlah, mungkin silap tu kat pihak aku. But well I'm still nobody.
Lay down in my bed.
I picked up my phone and my earphone.
I start hearing a song that I don't even know a words.
Layan perasaan. Without any sign of tears.
No one barely knows me.
Angan-angan tipikal perempuan.
Married.
Have a lots of kids.
Love to be loved by his husband.
Benda biasalah bila sekumpulan budak perempuan bergabung dan asyik menyatakan, "Bestnya kahwin". But who knows, setiap kegembiraan ada kesedihan. Tapi aku taklah selalu sangat berfikiran negatif. Mungkin.
Sometimes the things we want most in life are the things that will kill us.
Masa masih panjang. Live in it.
Empty
I can sacrifice my health.
And I can sacrifice my money.
And I can sacrifice my money.
I can sacrifice my nights.
And I can sacrifice my sanity.
I can sacrifice my words.
And I can sacrifice a song.
I can sacrifice the world.
And I can sacrifice nearly everyone in it.
The only thing I won't let them take, is you.
Kadang sedih itu tak perlukan setitis air mata. Sekalipun perempuan yang kau pandang itu bukan yang terbaik. Dan masih perempuan itu sedar. Jadi, jangan bandingkan kesengsaraan kau dengan perempuan itu. Dia lebih menderita.
Malam ini. Pastinya perempuan itu menangis lagi. Aku pasti. Tanpa pokok pangkalnya dia menangis. Pernah kau rasa apa yang dia rasa. Sedangkan aku sendiri tak mampu nak memikul apatah lagi perempuan itu. Maka cerita ini tamat disini. Maka habislah.
Once I Stop
Hakikat hidup.
Jarang orang nak terima.
Sampai ada yang merana.
Manusia pasti berubah suatu hari nanti.
Bezanya lambat atau cepat sahaja.
Kuatkan hati.
Supaya jangan berubah, tapi masih.
Aku sama seperti dahulu. Masih sama.
Time Change
Dulu lain, sekarang lain.
Manusia mana pernah kekal dengan satu perasaan.
Kononnya aku kuat, tapi dasarnya aku lemah.
Aku rindukan Rahil yang dulu.
Please Leave The Message After The Tone. Beeeeepp !!
If you find me missing.
Don't worry.
It just for a while.
I'm okay, I'm fine.
Take care.
The Night
I wish I could find you. I wish I could touch you.
Wrap my arms around you. And whisper “It’s all going to be ok.”
Letter From My Heart
Dear Baby,
I love you, but everything change now. But why ? Just tell me why ? Then I could understand. But please don't go away. Please
Love you,
How are you ? I hope you fine. There's no words I can find to reach you out. Sorry, again sorry. And again sorry. If I could say this word and repeat it again and again. It seems like sorry is not a word anymore, but an excuse.
I love you, but everything change now. But why ? Just tell me why ? Then I could understand. But please don't go away. Please
Love you,
The list of Reasons
And if love moves like air, then teach me how to dig my nails into the palm of my hand so I can remember what you once felt like.
If you missed me saying it, I miss you.
If you missed me saying it, I miss you.
That the way lovers touch can not be communicated in words, no matter how often or how hard you try.
That your body fights your mind and your mind fights your soul and your soul fights the world, to try and figure out what you are.
That sometimes, you're just tired.
That's all.
Cupid Me
Today: Berbuka puasa at Yellow Cab Pizza ( Ampang Point )
Me.
Cupid today.
Love love cupid.
I love her.
Her happiness is my happiness.
I love my girlfriends.
You and Him.
Cupid me.
Did you know ?
I love you.
I really mean it.
No matter how hard to get you, I'll try.
Even it hurt me too much, I'll try.
But please be human to me. Please.
Terbang tinggi-tinggi. Tinggalkan aku sebentar.
Malam ini, aku cuba cari satu kepastian. Kepastian tentang perasaan Rahil. Sebenarnya aku banyak lupa. Lupa tentang siapa diri aku, aku lupa bagaimana sifat diri aku. Berita hari sudah tentunya tidak menggembirakan langsung.
Suka atau tidak, aku telankan juga. Jika hal itu bisa melegakan hati aku. Buat kaki kanan, makin hari kita makin jauh. Dan datang satu berita yang buat kita terpisah jauh yang amat lagi. Aku sedang belajar jadi perempuan yang kuat itu. Seperti yang kau mahu.
Tapi nampaknya aku begitu lokek tentang hal hal kebahagian. Mungkin hidup aku sangat nipis dengan kebahagiaan dan amat tebal dengan kesakitan yang aku simpan dalam. Dan kau sebagai seorang sahabat yang menyintai aku seadanya. Terima Kasih.
Kali ini, terbang tinggi-tinggi dan carilah kebahagian hakiki kau. Jika sekali kau lupa jalan untuk pulang. Jangan risau, aku mengerti aku faham. Falsafah yang kau tinggalkan untuk aku, moment yang kau letakkan kat diri aku. Aku simpan rapi dan moga moga aku jadi perempuan itu.
#Halusinasi
John Mayer - Half Of My Heart
The faith is strong
But I can only fall short for so long
Down a road
Later on
You will hate that I never gave more to you
Than half of my heart
But I can't stop loving you
I can't stop loving you (girl)
I cant stop loving you
I can't stop loving you (girl)
I cant stop loving you with half of my heart
Oh, half of my heart
Half of my hearts got a real good imagination
Half of my hearts got you
Half of my hearts got a right mind to tell you that half of my heart wont do
Half of my heart is a shotgun wedding to a bride with a paper ring
Half of my heart is part of a man whose never truly loved anything
Murmur Softly
‘I’ll stay’, I said once more. I swallowed hard.
The problem was, I had no idea where I was going, it was one thing to decide to stay in but it was quite another figure to do that. I did the calculations in my head. I headed away. I doubted my decision more with every step. As the sun rose higher in the hazy sky and the dust began to rise in the air like it always did when streets began to bake in the heat, it was becoming harder to breathe.
But it was enough enable me to see myself as someone wounded. It didn’t change what he had done, and I didn’t think I would ever be able to understand. But it did provide another piece to the puzzle. And it made me realize that even though I thought I knew the situation inside and out, maybe there were still a lot of pieces missing.
P/S: Still finding the missing puzzle.
A Human Being, A Woman, A Daughter.
#Hoping someone sing this song to me. I wish:
I know a girl
She puts the color inside of my world
But she's just like a maze
Where all of the walls are continually changed
And I've done all I can
To stand on her steps with my heart in my hands
Now I'm starting to see
Maybe it's got nothing to do with me
Boys, you can break
You'll find out how much they can take
Boys will be strong
And boys soldier on
But boys would be gone without the warmth from
A womans good, good heart
You'll find out how much they can take
Boys will be strong
And boys soldier on
But boys would be gone without the warmth from
A womans good, good heart
Magic Sprinkle Day
The picture captured by my heart:
I remember this time. The time where I put my heart up beyond the sky.
#Ignore the error
#1
I've been watching your world from afar,
I've been trying to be where you are,
And I've been secretly falling apart,
I'll see.
To me, you're strange and you're beautiful,
You'd be so perfect with me but you just can't see,
You turn every head but you don't see me.
I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep and I'll put a spell on you.
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realize that you love me.
Yeah...Yeah...
Sometimes, the last thing you want comes in first,
Sometimes, the first thing you want never comes,
And I know, the waiting is all you can do,
Sometimes...
I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep,
I'll put a spell on you,
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realize that you love me.
I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep 'cos I'll put a spell on you,
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realize that you love me.
Yeah...
Yeah...
Yeah...
Yeah...
Yeah...
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